When I go down - Relient K

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own rules

I've thrown away so many things
that could have been much more
and I just pray
that problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no, that's not the way it works

when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and now the things that got me there
I think if only I'd have fought them

If and when I have
got myself from this clouded mind
All the thoughts have settled down
into a place where peace can search me out and find -
that I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away the hope i've had in friendships
I've thrown away so many things
that could have been much more
I've thrown away the secret to find an end to this

And I just pray that my problems will just go away
if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No, that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had
just slips through my hands
while my ever present conscience
shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me

Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yeah you love me
That consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly

You give me hope
And hope it gives me life
touched my heavy heart
and when you do you make it light
as I exhale
I hear your voice
and I answer you
no I hardly make any noise
from my lips
words I choose to say seem pathetic
but it's falling in its place -

Cos I love you
God I love you

when I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't walk very far
because you'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to lift me up again